Sorry blog for neglecting you.

^ Yoshi.
Wow, i haven't blogged in like half a year, hahah, so much for me making it a daily thing aye.. i may try to make an effort to blog more i think, not daily.. maybe weekly/ monthly, just a lot more than i have been, because, well i find it really awesome for getting stuff off my chest. Even if i do have only one follower. i don't care if noone reads my blogs, it's just a way to vent i guess. :) Where to start..

Well, i've got myself a Kitten recently.. hehe, and named him Yoshi ^_^ he's such a cute tabby cat, and he likes to play, and he's crazy really loll :P just a minute ago he broke my earphones by biting them ¬¬ he can be silly sometimes, and a little overwhelming in the house, but he's lovely :3

I've had another FAIL of a relationship.. haha. my life story. His name was Danny.. i wouldn't really say it was a fail, because the relationship itself was amazing. really. and i let him meet my family etc, and i met his, you know, it was all proper and everything XD He lived a fair distance away, but he always made an effort, and drove, so it was easy to see each other. The relationship was perfect, if im honest, apart from one thing. He had a strange living arrangement. he lived with his family and all that, but his "Ex girlfriend" also shared his home. I mean, that's fair enough, i did think it was a little weird, but i knew what i was getting myself into before we even got toghether :) but that really got to me, throughout the relationship, and my paranoia was too much, and you know, i felt it wasn't right. there was also the fact that i believe that i am actually still inlove with Jam(ie) ..my boyfriend from last November. :|

...yeahhhh, haha. it's strange, because, i dont know if it was/is "love" but the fact that after all this time, i still think about him, dream about him, and wish he was mine :/ ...the fact that every boyfriend i have hasn't been able to make me feel as happy as he did when i was with him. and the great thing is, that i know he doesn't feel the same :/ and it really gets to me, you know. i've actually cried myself to sleep and all that lol >_< i just replay memories and everything that we had and it makes me feel sad instantly. grrr. I even hung out with him recently, with a few other people. and it was like nothing happpened, none of us had changed, and we got along as well as we did when we were going out. it felt strange, and i think it made me feel a lot worse about the situation. I wish i wasn't so silly. :|

something that has also been bothering me recently, is i seem to have a few admirers. and when i say a few, i mean A FEW! XD it seems, nowadays i cant have any male friends, because they just end up liking me at some point or another, and i end up hurting them ;/ its really annoying. ): atm, i can count 6 people, who have, in the last two weeks, confessed to liking me. and wtf do i do. lool.

apart from all that, there's also other complications, i'm having trouble with finding out who my REAL friends are, and others who have just completely screwed me over :| this whole year has just been real shit really :/ nothing special at all. And damn do i hope it turns around soon.